I HATE MYSELF

Finally.. He read it.. I was very mean in the article..

I'm worry that he'll angry or what..

He say nothing about it.. But he did leave comment there..

I feel that i'm so CRUEL.. Did i hurt him?

I don't want to hurt anyone..

But i really control myself to stop writing blog that time..

Still.. I did.. sigh.. i don't know how much i LOVE him..

But i'm afraid to LOOSE him..

Somebody get it?? I don't know how to explain..

I would LOVE him to hug me..

But till now...... Well.. whatever..

I don like to force people to do what they don't want to do..

Cause i HATE it also.. I don like to obey to what i don't like..

FORCE ME???!!! FU*K OFF!!! Opps.. Sorry.. Too rude jor tim.. blek..

So.. He treats me well..

My parents didn't really stop me to sms or meet with him..

Itz a good sign^^ haha..

Happy here^^muackxz.. I like him to hold my hand tight..

Like i'm going to fly away.. I like to play around with him.. Joke him arond..

Cause.. He's ben dan.. wakaka..

My one and only one ben dan..^^